Thin Undercoating of Depression.

I think my laziness this week and being so tired and not really excited about anything can all be attributed to the undercoating of depression I am feeling about being an empty nester.  For over 24 years of my life I was wrapped up, tied up and tangeled up in the events and responsibity of my kids.  Now I am experiening loneliness like I have never known before.  My mother in law tells me to quick whining and that I will live through it.  What she fails to note is that she has always had at least one living close to her, including us (her son Mark).  Mine are all 14 to 20 hours away.  Same with my parents they had my two brothers and their families close by for years.  I have no one at this time.  I am praying God sends Melissa back home and soon!!  well, I am praying His will, but hoping that His will includes sending her back to me.  But we will see.  She is helping my oldest daughter with her baby right now and I know if I had to choose between momma (me) and a baby (Israel) that I would also choose the baby.  I am proud of her for what she is doing, but really hope that things change and the kids start making their way back towards home. 

Thank God for His love and mercy and for allowing me to have another day.